Day winding down
and energy fading
I move the space heater
close to my body
take my medicine
Try to feel like the
former me
I have not had a shower
in ages
I have not shot a basketball
in what seems like ages
I need Viagra
but am allergic to me
I am here, my wife beside me
My eyes are burning
but I am watching sports again
college not pro
the urge to play ball
has not vanished
The urge to write poetry
has not vanished
The urge to give to my friends
and loved ones has not vanished
My birthday is approaching
I have more, much more
to give to my friends and family
I have music to play and listen to
I have the mountains and ocean
I have the crickets in my head
when I meditate
I have the fight for justice
to pursue with others
I’m not ready to die
not by a long shot
I may feel that energy
is draining away from
b ut I believe it will come back
It will come back
I have more living and loving to do